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Dinners… Parties…. events.
Two weeks pass by and I am completely numb. I might be alive but not exactly living; everything seems to move in a blur. I do as Thane says, not once going against him; my mother is worried, but I didn’t know how to explain to her that her little girl had been so ready to leave her all on her own. The equipment I destroyed had been replaced that very day. Thane never brought it up, but it would always remain an unanswered question.
Why? Why did I think taking my own life would solve anything? I still couldn’t give an answer to that because at that moment it felt so right, but when I was finally calm, reflecting on it, I knew it had been so wrong.
We were both in the room. Thane was saying something, but I couldn’t make out the words.
“Riley?” he calls, finally noticing that I wasn’t following at all.
“Yes Thane?”
“What’s wrong with you?” he asks.
“I’m sorry, I’ll try…”
“You don’t have to be sorry for anything; you did nothing wrong,” he says sounding slightly irrigated, and I am about to apologize again, but his stern look cuts me off. “If you are missing/ Axel’s company, then I could have him here”
“No, is not that.”
“Then what is it?”
“I thought this was what you wanted. I thought you wanted a little submissive, Luna. I want to be just that.”
“I like when you fight me; it does turn me on.”
“I thought it would only get me punished.”
“That’s part of the fun.”
“I don’t want to be punished.”
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‘Are you sure about that?” he asks, that wicked glint back in his eyes, and suddenly my body seems to come alive.
I missed him. I miss his hands on me. He hadn’t forced himself on me, and I felt stupid for wanting him. I was slowly becoming those very strange, annoying girls I read about–the girl who can’t see what is right from what is wrong, the girl that just has to end up broken.
I knew what my mother suffered in this pack, in the hands of Thane’s father. I hated him for what his father did to my mother, yet I wanted him–wanted his hands on me, wanted to
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forget that he was the monster for just a while. I wanted his skilful hands to bring me back to life.
“I want you so badly, Thane,” I confessed. “But I feel like a traitor for wanting that.”
“I will not force you, not anymore. But you need this, and maybe you hate me right now, but you don’t hate Axel,” he says, that glint still in his eyes.
“How are you okay with Axel and me…?”
“I took so much from him; it is only fair that I share with him.”
“And he is okay with this?” I questioned.
“Oh, he is; I think he liked fucking you more than he should.“.
Axel’s presence is comforting; I could see the worry in his eyes, and I knew that ‘he knew‘. He knew about the stupid decision I had been about to make a few weeks ago. I felt this need to explain my actions, but again I said nothing. His eyes are not judging me; I don’t like the pity either, but I’ll take that over a judging look at this moment.
“How are you feeling Riley?” he asks. While Thane walks further into the room, giving us
some space.
“Better?” It came out as a question. “Sorry, I kept my distance from you… I just felt so embarrassed.”
“Don’t be,” he says. “You were in pain; you made a decision that you thought was the right one… I’m glad he got to you in time.
I hugged him. “I’m glad he did too.”
With that I scooted over, taking the first move. I kissed him on his lips, down his throat. I unbuttoned his shirt, and he shrugged it off. His eyes were on me even as I fumbled with his belt. He helped me take it off, and soon we were both naked. He kissed me, peppering kisses down my whole form. Never had Axel kissed me with so much hunger and want; he had always kept things light–well, as light as they could be,
His hands circled around the curve of my breast up my nipple, and my cheeks reddened. It still felt strange knowing ‘he‘ was touching me so intimately.
He reached out to ready me, but as impatient as I was, I rocked my body against his.
“That isn’t helping me maintain control,” he says, flipping me over so he was on top; this way, I couldn’t move; he had me pinned down.
“I am ready,” I gasped out, a smile stretched on his lips, and then very slowly he slid into me. He gave me a moment to settle down, but I had already been reaching out for him when he
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A moan left my lips. I had gasped out his name–that’s what I thought until he paused. Only then did I realise I had called out Thane’s name while ‘he‘ was fucking me, but because he was also a sicko just like Thane, my action only brought a smile to his lips.
“I really don’t think He would be able to stay away from you now” Axel says to me and it takes me a second to discover he was referring to Thane. Damn.
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