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Chapter Eighty Seven
I didn’t say another word. I just watched him take gulps straight from the bottle of wine. When it was finally empty and nothing was left to drink, he lit a cigarette.
“Alexander…” I began, and he exhaled a slow stream of smoke in my direction. He did it again, and I snatched the cigarette from his mouth, tossing it aside. “What is your problem? You’re the Alpha and King, and here you are getting drunk and wasting away.”
“I’ll choose this over being the Alpha King any day,” he said, pulling out another cigarette. I wrapped my hand around his, stopping him, and for the first time, he really looked at me. I noticed his red, bloodshot eyes; he was in pain; finally, I could tell. “I don’t like hurting women, but touch me again and I might reconsider.” He said, his voice cold, Alex had never spoken to me in that manner before. I should give up; at least I tried my best. I should leave before things got really messy, but the advisors had called for me because I was the only one who could help him at least that’s what they believed. He needed me now more than ever; but I couldn’t help him if he wouldn’t speak to me.
“Then hurt me, Alexander Blackwood. What scares me the most is not what you can do to me; it’s failing you. I want to be here for you; tell me how to help you.”
“You really want to help me?” he asked, and I nodded.
“That’s exactly why I’m here–to help.”
“Then do me a favor and leave. I need to be alone.”
“Maybe you don’t want me here, but you need me here, and I am not going anywhere.”
“You are so fucking stubborn, Kaida. Has anyone ever told you that?”
“Yes, I think I’ve heard that once or twice,” I said with a small smile.
He looked around. “This place is a mess.”
“It is. But it doesn’t matter.”
We sat in comfortable silence for a few minutes before he broke it.
“I didn’t know they were still alive.
I always told myself I had moved on from my past, but maybe I had only been fooling myself. I knew I had grandparents, and after my parents disappeared, I hoped–believed–they would hear the news and come back to stand by their grandson. They were my last hope. But years passed, and they never came, they never even bothered to visit. They didn’t care.
I did not handle this situation as a king should; they came here with information that might have been valuable. I should have let them in, welcomed them as guests, heard what they had to say before sending them away. But I couldn’t do that. I felt so much anger and so much hate, and I let it come in the way of common reasoning. I sent them away because I was furious; I sent them away knowing that was the wrong thing to do, and yet I did it anyway.”
“We are not expected to always make the right choices; our emotions get in the way at times. That human part in us—without it we are nothing but animals. We can’t always pretend to be fine, and you had every reason to be angry.”
“So many people believed I didn’t deserve to be King; sometimes I wonder if they are right,”
“You admitted your mistakes; you didn’t try to justify them–something not many can do. You’re also the most
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intelligent man I’ve ever known, and I’m not just saying that because you’re my mate, but because it’s true.”
“Do you believe in me, Kaida?”
“Yes. And I will always believe in you–even when others don’t, even when you don’t believe in yourself,” I said to him.
He placed a kiss on my forehead.
“I wish you didn’t have to see me in this state.”
“It’s fun to watch you drunk–or at least the closest to that you will ever be.” I said, and he laughed.
“I might have scared my advisors.”
“I’m sure they’ll understand,” I said before placing a kiss on his lips, then his neck. He gently stopped me, his hand resting on mine.
“Your presence is more than enough; for now, that’s all I need.”
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