Chapter Seventy Nine
I didn’t exactly call for Sarah just so she could help me draw a bath.
“Luna.” Sarah addressed, bowing. “The Alpha informed me that you requested my presence.‘
“Yes. I wanted to ask about the girl… the little one Alexander brought from the Gray Moon Pack.”
I caught the slight hesitation on her face before she answered. “Her name is Amanda.”
“Beautiful name for a beautiful girl. How has she been recovering?”
“She’s doing very well, better than I ever expected, actually. She’s blending in with the other kids, which is nice- she should be around people her age and…” Sarah kept talking. I couldn’t help but smile.
“You seem to have grown a fondness for this girl.”
“I… I just feel sorry for her; I want to protect her in any way
“Sarah, you know you can tell me anything.” I reminded her, and she nodded.
“Of course. It’s just that I don’t know if you’ll approve.”
“Approve of what?”
“I had taken her back to my apartment; she has been living with me–I didn’t ask for your permission; it’s just that she is such a nice kid, and I want to help her. I should have spoken to you earlier about this, but I didn’t. I was also thinking about adopting her as… my child. I know that sounds stupid; she had her own parents and her pack, and it’s wrong to…”
“No it’s not.” I said cutting her off. It doesn’t sound stupid, nor is it wrong. I can tell that you really like this girl, and I can see no other person fit enough to take care of her but you. I only have two conditions. First, I would have to speak to her if this is what she wants, and secondly, you would have to promise me to take good care of her and protect her; she has indeed been through a lot.”
Sarah nodded eagerly. “Of course, I promise, and you can speak to her anytime you are free to.”
“Then it’s settled; you have my permission.”
Sarah smiled. “Thank you, Luna. I never imagined myself becoming a mother, but then I saw her, and there was not a single thing I wanted more. Have you ever thought about what holding a child of your own would feel like?” she asked, and her question hit me by surprise. Strangely, I haven’t thought deeply into it. Yes, I knew it was bound to happen, but I hadn’t imagined what motherhood meant.
“I haven’t thought about it–at least not in that way.” I said.
“It’s a beautiful experience.”
“I’m sure it is,” I agreed. But whenever I imagined having children, I didn’t feel ready. When would I be? Surely not now. “I’ve been having unprotected sex…” I trailed off, realizing I was speaking out loud.
She nodded. “The chances of you getting pregnant soon is pretty high.”
I wasn’t ready. It felt like the final line–the last straw that sealed the end of my dream of becoming an Alpha. By now, I knew that dream was out of reach, yet having children felt like closing the door on something I had wanted for as long as I could remember.
“I am not ready to have a child.” I said to her, “Does that make me a bad person?”
“Of course not. Children… They come with responsibilities, total devotion. It’s alright to not be ready.”
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Chapter Seventy Nine
“I think Alexander would want children soon.”
“It’s your body, Luna, not his. Having children means shutting the doors to many opportunities,” she said, as if reading my mind–that was exactly what I had been thinking, and it felt eerie. I had always been close to Sarah, but she seemed to know me far better than I realized.”
“I don’t plan to be with any other person but him, he is my mate.”
“That’s not what I was referring to, and you know it. You visited the Outpost; what did you see?” she asked but I remained silent; still, she spoke on. “Many believe in you, and what you did back there was the spark they had been waiting for. Do you know the woman you saved was taken care of? I don’t think she’ll ever lack anything again.”
“I didn’t do that.” I said to her,
“But it wouldn’t have happened without you. They believe in you, Luna, in only you.‘
