Chapter Twenty Eight
Chapter Twenty Eight
“It doesn’t have to be this way, you know.” He says. “We don’t have to be this distant.”
“I don’t get what you’re trying to say.”
“It could be just the two of us, no fighting, no whores, just us — as mates.”
I was silent. He was offering me a life as his mate and his Luna, when we didn’t have to hate each other. Cas would have wanted this; this would have been to her a dream come true, but I didn’t know if this was what I wanted.
Maybe I was afraid. Alexander was a charmer, no doubt committing to a man like him could never end well. What if this all turned out to be another game to him? What if breaking my heart was his master plan?
Yet, a small part of me lusted after something… different, something new, but then there was the other part–the other part that told me love was never meant for me.
“No. It can’t. What happened tonight doesn’t change a thing. I only agreed to this to prove my point, but… You are better off with your whores; things are better off left how they had been.”
“You are afraid; I can see that.” He says.
I hated how easily he read me, but it was more than just fear. I didn’t trust him, and what is commitment without trust?
“I guess I’m just… different.”
We lay in silence for the next few hours.
“Alex.” I whispered.
“Kaida?”
“Thank you for your gift.” I said, referring to the rogue.
He turned to me, and for a moment I saw something different in those beautiful blue eyes. “And thank you for making me your first.”
ALEXANDER POV
Kaida was a mystery.
I had taken her so brutally with no idea that she was a virgin; I should have figured that out when she felt so tight, but I didn’t believe her. Just to prove her point, she discarded her pride and went on her knees. I couldn’t understand my mate and the lengths she was willing to go just to get what she wanted, I admired that.
I hated myself for hurting her; I wanted to make it up to her, and that’s the only reason I was sparing her Beta. I never did like the man. It’s clear she didn’t know about the beta’s feelings for her, but I did. The moment I saw the both of them together, I knew that he saw her as more than just a friend; that had led me into assuming they were lovers.
I made her beg on her knees, like a slut, just to satisfy my bruised ego. I should be happy now, but I wasn’t.
I didn’t want to think any more about how being in her felt like; it had been… amazing. She didn’t have to do anything, yet being in her filled me with an animalistic need, stronger than I had ever felt before. She turned me on, and now she laid beside me, completely naked and fully asleep.
I had been her first. Something about that filled me with a different kind of pride and, at the same time, shame. While I spent nearly each night with a different woman, my mate kept herself for me. Maybe she wasn’t the
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broken one after all.
I wanted something from her, something I had never wanted from any other woman before; it was more than casual sex–I couldn’t explain it, but I just wanted her, and yet… she wasn’t ready. I couldn’t blame her; she had every right to be afraid. I didn’t have a great reputation among my pack members or beyond; I was known as the ruthless king who would stop at nothing to get what he wanted. The truth is many were just the same.
