Chapter Eighty Four
Chapter Eighty Four
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I could hear the disappointment in his voice, and for a moment I wondered if there was another what if he didn’t have to die?
way;
“When you rejected me, I had felt so broken; I… attempted taking my own life just to end it all. Logan saved me.”
“Bella, once I did love you. I was willing to do anything for you. After you passed, a lot happened. I couldn’t recover from your loss, and at a point, I lost myself. Years later, I met Riley, and she saved me from the monster I was becoming. I can’t love two at the same time without hurting the other.”
“But you’ve always loved her more.”
“Yes. I do.”
Every time he said those words, they broke me, maybe because I knew it was true: Riley wasn’t his fated mate, and still he loved her. I, on the other hand, have the benefit of the mate bond; his wolf would always be drawn to me, and yet, he didn’t want me. What he felt for her was more than love; it was devotion, obsession, admiration, and so much more. Not even what we shared in the past could be compared to that.
The moon goddess might have made us mates, but I was never meant to be a part of his life. Riley was always the one, and for that reason… I hated her.
“You know, even after everything, I still want to have a part of you to myself, and that’s why I chose Logan- to be a reminder of what we shared. What I feel for him is completely different from what I feel for you, but maybe it could grow into something bigger one day; maybe it will grow into something similar to what you have with Riley.”
“Logan told me a story of what happened to his mate. Had that been true or just another lie to add to the rest?”
“It is true. Partially true. He did kill his mate, not because of the curse but because he lost control of his wolf; his wife had… cheated on him, and when he discovered it, he killed her, but it had been a mistake, a slip–just as he had said.” I explained, and I could see the question in his eyes, and I was quick to defend. “He is not like that anymore; he has changed; he doesn’t want to be the violent person he had once been.”
“Do you want a congratulations from me?” he asked.
Strangely, I wanted his approval, but he didn’t need to know that. “No, I just needed you to know.”
“Bella, this wouldn’t have happened if you had accepted my rejection and left the pack….”
“I would have died.” I said cutting him off.
“Now do you know how many would lose their lives? Vox would go against other packs and burn them to the ground.”
I rose to my feet. I didn’t need to hear this; I didn’t want to hear this. “The Thane I knew would have
risked anything to make sure I stayed alive,”
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Chapter Eighty Four
“The Bella I knew, the one who was my mate, would never risk the lives of many others just to keep hers.
Tears spilled down my eyes. I would have to live with this, but I thought I had come to terms with it until now. “You are no different from me; you are no saint. You’ve done worse.”
“I never said I was one. I kill with purpose, Bella.”
“Do you think I am a monster?”
He gave me a long, unreadable look and I fidgeted under his gaze. “No. I just think you are a girl with a broken heart, a girl who just wants to live. In the end, it won’t be worth it.”
“You want to save lives? Then here is your chance. I will find a way to let you out of this place, but then you will spend the rest of your life with me; you will send Riley away, and it will be the both of us; no one will have to die.”
