Chapter One Hundred and Eighty Six
**THANE**
I had no right to hold her captive, not after everything I had done to her and yet I couldn’t bring myself to let her go. Maybe it was because knew that this was my last chance and if I did screw it then that was it.
Still her words pierced deep.
I knew she didn’t mean it. I knew a part of her still loved me even if she resented that part, but hearing her say those words straight to my face. hearing her compare me with my father who I thought was the monster made me realized how bad I had screwed up.
More than once I had given up on staying away from her, but Axel was always there to stop me. He never really forgave me for what I did, even though he knew I had every reason to. He thought I deserved the punishment I got.
“You cannot go to her” he would always say, “If she had managed to move on, seeing you would only cause her more pain and she don’t need that“.
Finally I had gotten a grip of the beast I had become, If only Riley knew that she had fueled up the need in me to put the lycan on a leash.
Oh gods I loved her. I was hopelessly in love with this girl and when I saw her at that field, fighting those soldiers off, that had been the most sexy thing I had ever seen.
She was strong, really strong, I noticed that from her moves. But I couldn’t let any of the soldiers know who she was and so I had to take her to the dungeons. Of course that was only part of the act, this was the last place I wanted her to be. I couldn’t help but imagine her in our room on the king size bed.
I sure would spend the whole night watching her
But something had clearly changed in her. I might have caused that or maybe there was something more, something I didn’t know. There was this anger present in her eyes, I had seen it when she fought against those soldiers. I should be trying to obtain some information from her. She had afterall led the attack on the pack and why it was Inept of me, I couldn’t bring myself to care.
She believed I was behind all the attacks on those packs. She wasn’t the only one who thought that. No matter the public speeches I made, no one wanted to believe that there was a different
group
of people behind the attacks. What I couldn’t understand was why they wanted people to believe the attack was coming from this pack. Possibly because they wanted the attention off their backs. Whoever is behind this must have some serious issue with this pack.
I did notice Riley avoided my eyes.
I deserve this, I let go of her when I should have fought to keep her safe, i believed I was doing the right thing.
Chapter One Hundred and Eighty S
She had once begged to stay, now she was ready to do anything to leave.
Nothing was more disturbing than the ring on her finger, I found my eyes trailing down to the plain ring every few seconds.
I knew she had done that as a kind of come back act, but that didn’t make things any easier to bear. I was jealous. Jealous of the man who she had said ‘yes‘ to, I bet she smiled at him, even laughed too. All I got was her cold hard glare but could take that, it was better than nothing.
Since she left, I hadn’t met with a single woman. There were questions on who would be the next Queen. Some believed my next move would be to make Elder Bailey my queen, they were wrong, I could never do that to Riley. What was more puzzling was how the others still referenced Riley as their queen, even in her absence.
