Chapter Thirty One
“I know you want me–more than you will ever admit.” He whispered.
“Stay away from me.” I said, but my voice shook.
Alexander walked closer. “Are you sure that’s what you want?” I opened my mouth to tell him off, but no words came out. He was so close… too close. “You say one thing, Kaida, but your body, it says another.”
It had been a dream.
The first dream I had ever had about Alexander. The dream felt so real… In this dream, I had wanted him to touch me, to satisfy a need he had awoken in me. I could still feel the wetness between my legs.
Alexander walked out of the bathroom, a towel wrapped around his lower waist. I found my eyes lingering on his toned abs; his hair had also grown out a bit. I couldn’t deny that Alexander was a very good–looking man, and he also had a reputation for it.
He stared at me, a small smirk playing on his lips, his eyes slightly darkened.
“You are on your ‘heat‘,” he says.
“What?”
“I’m sure you know what that means.‘
I was familiar with the word; I knew about it. He was my fated mate, and he had marked me. If I had paid more attention to lessons about mating like Cas did, I wouldn’t be so caught off guard by this news. When a she–wolf was in her heat, she attracted more ‘attention‘; her smell is stronger at this point, and unmated male wolves are easily drawn to the smell, but it’s even stronger with her mate.
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Now I could understand the strange dream I had earlier and why I had felt so… ‘needy.‘
“I can manage; it’ll only be a few days.”
“Kaida, your wolf needs her mate- you can’t hold her back”
“I won’t have sex with you.”
“You are so stubborn Kaida, you know that, right?‘
“As I said, I can manage; it will be over.”
It doesn’t just pass as easily as I made it sound and I knew that too, but I wasn’t going to give in, not this time. “You’ll be in pain for the whole time; why do you always like tormenting yourself?”
“I’m sure you’ll enjoy my pain.” I muttered before rising from the bed. I walked past him.
My wolf was in a state of unrest, she wanted her mate and I was holding her back. Soon the pain began and with each hour it grew worse. I had to pause my exercise. I tried laying down. That didn’t help; anytime I closed my eyes, he was all I could think about, Alexander in all his naked glory.
I could do this; I had survived worse I kept repeating to myself; maybe if I said it enough times, I would start
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believing it.
Alexander returned late. The moment he stepped into the room, his scent filled the air.
I shivered–it had nothing to do with the cold.
“Kaida…”
“No!” I said cutting him off.
“You are tormenting me just as much as you are tormenting yourself.”
“Then go seek satisfaction from your whores as you always do.”
“I’m drawn to you, now more than ever.”
“So you feel the pain too?” I asked hopefully.
“Not in the way you feel it.”
When I thought the pain couldn’t get worse, I discovered that it could, for a moment my vision went white.
I managed to find the vial Alexander had given me, I emptied its contents into my mouth.
“That wouldn’t stop the pain,” he says.
“Have you ever tried it?” I asked, and his silence was answer enough. “So you wouldn’t know. There is no harm in trying.
The potion barely reduced the pain, so he was right.
Why did the she–wolves have to suffer this alone? Why were the males who did the marking left unharmed? It wasn’t fair; I would have felt so much better if he was going through the same pain I had to endure.
